writing isn't my thing

So maybe keeping a blog isn't my thing, or it's that I have a group on facebook where I write to everyone AND I have this. Either way, I really should keep this more up-to-date. I guess maybe I haven't felt like a lot has been going on, but enough of my excuses.

As of today, I start my Acts 1:8 summer in 15 DAYS!!! I'm so excited and nervous. I'm excited because I really want a different experience than I've ever had before and I know it's going to happen this summer, but I'm nervous because I have NO IDEA what to expect. It's the first "real" time that I don't REALLY have a schedule and I'm just "going with the flow". I hate that phrase, by the way. When people say that they don't really mean it, you usually DO have a schedule of some kind.

We'll start out in Louisville, doing different missions things and having seminars about leadership and what that looks like. Then, we'll go to the Appalachian Mountains and do more missions. And then come back and get ready to go to Haiti. We leave for Haiti July 8 and get back July 20 and then debrief till July 27.

I guess you could say I'm scared. REALLY scared. They were explaining some things that we'll face in Haiti and I guess I KNEW about it before but didn't really THINK about these things. I'm very conservative when it comes to anything public or outside or whatever. I'm very modest and these things make it hard for me. I'm not a camper of any kind and although we'll have beds, some things are "camping style".

HOWEVER, yesterday at the 10:45 service at church there was a video talking about what gets in the way and what we worship and the word "fear" popped up there. I can't let my "fear" get in the way of what God wants me to do this summer. Not to mention, I DID ask God for an ADVENTURE this year. Well, low and behold here it is. The saying, "be careful what you wish for" pops in my head right now.

He has a funny sense of humor, but sometimes I feel like I do need to be thrown into things to learn sometimes, being sweet and gentle doesn't always work for me. Sometimes I need to be hit in the head with a stick. I also did ask to be thrown into it so yeah, no need for anyone to say I told you so or whatever. I know, "be careful what you ask for". I also know, He'll never place anything before that I can't handle without Him. So please pray for me that I won't allow my fear to get in the way.

Thank you to everyone who has been praying for me and please continue to do so.

This is all for now as I do my best writing at night, so I'm sorry if this is scatter-brained.

Crazy in Love with Christ

~Anna